things don’t always go according to plan
And for me after graduating from college, things certainly did NOT go according to my life plan I had plotted out for myself in my head. I had always pictured myself graduating from undergrad and then either going right on to law school with no problem or accepting a fantastic job in my chosen career field.
This was far from what happened…very far. I accepted an unpaid internship in marketing and was rejected from the two law schools I applied to. I applied to thousands of jobs- and I mean thousands and only got responses from three employers. One was a part time opportunity over 1,000 miles from me that required me to relocate and the others were either pyramid scheme jobs in disguise or a “build your client list” type job…neither was anything I wanted to commit to.
the feeling that things will surely never go your way again
Around let’s say the beginning of October after I graduated I started to feel defeated, like things would never look up. Nothing was going my way. My horse was unrideable, I had been rejected from my grad school choices, I couldn’t find a job that would allow me to move out of my childhood home and I had very little motivation to keep trying. It was disheartening, I had never had this kind of experience before, actual failure. I graduated with honors from a pretty good university, but that didn’t seem to matter, I was still not successful.
Seeing everyone else seem to have success on their facebook pages was disheartening, but one thing to keep in mind during tough times is that no one ever glorifies the hard times in their lives, they only want to share the positives. So I started to look at the positives and think about what I could do to change my life so I could get back on track.
Regrouping
After being able to show a friend’s horse at a horse show in KC, I regrouped and got back on track with what I needed to be doing. My parents encouraged me to take a LSAT prep course and I signed up and began taking it. Just the idea of having a schedule again really helped me. Even though I worked two jobs and did photography jobs on the side, I still really hadn’t gotten into a groove since everything was very flexible and subject to change.
I put my heart and soul into studying for that silly test, after lots of terrible practice scores and going through thousands of pages of workbooks and hours of class, I got my LSAT score back in January and happily was able to apply to law schools with the confidence that THIS time would be different.
and it was different
I got accepted. Not to just one school but to seven! It was thrilling, even though I got rejected from my dream/goal school, I got offered scholarships, sent bumper stickers and tons of emails telling me I was the perfect candidate for their school. It was uplifting and fantastic to finally have something turn positive. I had a future, I was going to law school. This is my chance to have a second chance at doing things correctly. I know what I need to do to be successful now, and if I fail this time I have no one to blame but myself- but I know I have what it takes, I have the drive and the will to make being a lawyer something that can be a reality. I have a plan and I’ve promised myself I have to make good on at least most of that plan.
how i would have handled this differently
My advice to everyone who is going into college, is in college, or is facing an unexpected gap year is this. If you are going to college now- a new freshman- please remember to take school seriously, this is a time to discover yourself and find out what you are good at and what you want to do with the rest of your life. Try new things, meet new people, join a group, go greek, play sports, get involved, and go to class.
If you are in college, be sure that you are taking advantage of your opportunities. Ask for help finding internships because those internships will lead to a job somewhere. Network, make business cards and give them to potential employers. Keep your social media something you are proud that people will find when they google your name. Be smart and finish strong.
Unexpected gap year headed your way? Find a job that will keep you above water, any job, it can literally be anything that makes you money. Pet sit, house sit, baby sit, drive for lyft, do something. Don’t sit around and feel sorry for yourself that your life isn’t going according to plan. It happens to a lot more people than you think. Find something that you live and get immersed in it- this will help you re-prioritize and find out what direction you want to go, what way you really want to go, not what people have been telling you for your entire life. Once you’ve found that direction, start running that way and don’t stop until you’ve reached your goal whatever it may be. You can do it.
recap
Surround yourself with people who support you, or who have your best interest in mind. These people will help you reach the goals you set for yourself. Stay away from negativity.
Travel. See something new that inspires you to think. Travel is more inspirational than you think. It allows you to find yourself in a new place, you realize what is important to you and who are the people that will allow you to be yourself. It helps you grow and become a better person. Solo travel is even better, it can be scary at first, but it is worth every second of fear. You will prove to yourself that you are stronger than you ever thought you could be.
Disconnect from social media and technology for a bit. Re-prioritize your life and remember what is important. Don’t do things just because you’ll get a cool instagram photo. Do things because you want to, a cool photo is just an added bonus sometimes.
Set goals and make sure you meet them, give yourself rewards when you make it. This helps keep you on track and moving forward. Moving forward is key.
Don’t be afraid to have a little fun, let loose and go out with friends. Don’t forget where you came from but know where you want to go, or at least go try to figure out where you want to go. (And I’m not talking about bar hopping, I’m talking about life lol).
Never give up friends. You are strong and can turn your life into whatever you want it to be. Be open to new things, be flexible. Be willing to make a change or start from the bottom if you have to. You can do it.